Truths About MeNov 12, 2021
Here are some truths, little snippets of me. I am writing here so you get a real feel for me...
1. I love LOVE movement as therapy. A good beat in a crowd moving their bodies under the red light just for the sake of moving is my best medicine. The lack of words. The eye contact. The sweat. The safety amidst anonymity (mostly, watch your drink!). I also love to roller skate due to the same dynamic. Adults working on their equilibrium and moving their bodies just for fun and practice inspires me and makes me smile big. Of course, I've encountered problematic behavior from so many people in these environments and have learned a lot about how to navigate myself when out alone in a movement environment from doing things like this for years. Expressing myself through movement has been one of my greatest teachers and I find the differences from verbal expression never-ending and so satisfying.
2. I learned to DJ, and do believe I have a very good ear. It’s so good for me to engage in creative things that are not work-related. I also engaged in self-defense training for the first time in my life. DJ-ing is fun and I avoid practicing. Self-defense is not fun, I take it seriously, and it was very hard for me.
3. I can be over the top about problematic environmental / nutritional / lifestyle impacts on the female reproductive system. My partner thinks I am OCD. We have to argue about this because I know these factors don’t impact him in the same way and that is a hard truth about living in a female body. Also, it can be a little much because our environment is unfortunately toxic in ways that are very hard to avoid, it's non-stop, and if one doesn't watch out it's a recipe for orthorexia (a very real challenge, if you don't know about it and find yourself constantly policing yourself....check it out). I wrestle with asking myself if it really matters and thinking it is very important every day.
4. I used to play competitive tennis fairly seriously, this was so fun for me and it was my main outlet for my emotions before I cultivated emotional intelligence. I had a reputation for problematic behavior: rage fits and many many broken supplies. I had to learn how to regulate myself. I also had the most fun at that phase of my life through this outlet and believe playing sports with others was one of my best resources at that stage of my life.
5. I am a fast person. I’ve accepted that about myself. It has been a pain point for me in the past about moving too fast for others. I trend toward anxiety, not depression (I believe most humans struggle with anxiety / depression at some point for some reason or another). I see it as a human continuum, and I wish we could start talking about it in the way we talk about digestive challenges or headaches. Let's normalize it and accept that mental health is real and important. Speed… slowing down is real medicine for me, yet not natural. I think, drive, move, act, decide, and cook…quickly. Sometimes this causes issues! Sometimes it is a great skill. Except when I offer pelvic therapy, which is not quick and is the most attuned process. Slowed down attuned contact feels like a special skill and gift because it requires me to slow down. I sense sharing that with others also helps me understand the nature of how and why the nervous system surrenders.
6. My time, energy, and skills get more and more valuable to me. I’m the only one I know doing what I do, the way I do it, with the combination of trainings and lenses I hold. It's rare for a pelvic health practitioner to also be a trained mental health professional. This is a very unique feeling in a world saturated with humans in such a competitive mode. This has also brought many challenges because it's been isolating. This field is changing / growing / navigating many challenges (see some of the shadows I discuss in my videos). I decided to start teaching and training others about trauma-informed pelvic healthcare because of the severe need and lack of high-caliber professionals in this field.
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